When Death Creeps Up Your Pants
WARNING: this is one of those get-wise-crap posts, highly not recommended at all.
When death knocks on your door what do you think? I personally wouldn’t worry so much about how much dough I have left in my account, or about that sleek sports car that I could’ve had. I had a gun in my mouth once twice and you know what I was thinking? I was trying hard not to wet myself. I may be a little comical for those of you who know me but I believe when death approaches all that has mattered all your life suddenly become nothing, nada!!
It’s hard to let go of life. I worship Kurt Cobain for a living for the sake of worshipping something and I’ve wanted to pull the trigger so many times when I’m down. I simply couldn’t let go. That’s the single most reason I’m still breathing this dirty air today.
This life though, what do you do in it, what can you do? When it comes down to it, what really matters? You can’t take your gold to your grave (unless you’re Chinese) and you’re fucked if you don’t know whether you’re going to heaven or hell. Well maybe you don’t believe in heaven and hell, fine then, you’ll just die and become a void?! Who the fuck want to do that? Fine, reincarnate, yeah die and rebore as a monkey. I’ll shoot you when I see you dangling on my banana tree!!
Anyway.. go watch Godfather or something and reflect on your life.
September 8th, 2005 at 3:50pm
I’m going to say this once, then i’m logging off for a few days because I need to recharge my internal batteries and concentrate on something very important happening this weekend.
I don’t have your way with words mate, but here goes: WAKE UP! stop being so fucking glum. get some focus, try to get leverage on what it is you want from life and bust your balls trying to get it if you have to. stay away from negative influences like the fucking godfather. take a look outside at some of natures most beautiful creations (take a look at yourself dood, in a non-gay way of course) and embrace the life you’ve been given. do you think mother nature ever said “ah, sod this. 10billion years and the earth still sucks. that’s it , i give up…” no, she went on to make the human race, the biggest single mistake EVER
, but seriously, right now all you’re feeling is uncertainty. get focus, find something to get a leverage on and you’ll find something you can be certain of.
when i die , i want my son to be proud of my achievements, however small they are, i want him to say ‘my dad always aimed for the stars and he never stopped aiming for them, he lived each day with passion. he was a real influence on my life!’
if you keep talking like this on your site mate, i might just stop visiting. you have to surround yourself with positive people if you want to stay positive, if you can’t find those people then create positive thoughts and images in your mind, do something positive. negativity is sooooo destructive. reading your post stirred up enough negativity in me to last the rest of the day!
September 8th, 2005 at 7:27pm
*lmfao* dude sorry if I dragged you back down to the graves, it wasn’t my intentions. This post is actually a call to reflect on what we’ve done in our lives and how we want to be remembered by. Anyway, it’s probably the Kurt Cobain worshipping part or the monkey shooting part that got you thinking I was radiating the negative vibes around here, but whatever it is it’s not OK dude?! I am trying to live my life with passion everyday of the week, even when I’m down. So worry no more dude and let’s get our shit off the ground (dS) and let’s become millionaires very soon all right!!
September 9th, 2005 at 2:59am
Write nice stuff man. Keep the Anthony Robbins (his name is Anthony apparently, my ex-wife has his book here and yep, his name is Anthony Robbins, not Tony!) tapes handy and keep the journal alive man. It’s nice to read about your goal setting and hearing the positive feedback in your writing.
We are going to make millions, no doubt about it. It’s not impossible to achieve, so lets do it. BUT, stop the posts on death, suicide and dying, oh and that covers death right.. It put me on a real downer man, you know how sensitive I am and how I speak before I process information…