Metamorphosis
I think I finally have an idea of what my problem is. I hate it here and I’ve been putting my life on hold for too long. Well, figuring that out, I decided I still hate it here but I no longer have to put my life on hold just because of that. I can still have a life, and channel that hatred to fuel my life, my work and my passions. I know it sounds like a silly epiphany but I think that might be the key to the beginning of my happiness. I guess it shouldn’t matter where I am I should try to be happy just for the sake of being happy. It’s better to spread happiness than misery, and I’ve been guilty all these years. Ok I admit this won’t happen overnight but there was another death today (Cin’s grandpa) so I thought it’s best that I live my life to the fullest regardless of where I am. Cuz before you know it *poof* you’re just a ghost!
I should work on a weekly schedule again. And I won’t let my bad knee hold me back. I’ll play ball again and try to be careful. Hell who knows if I’m happy again I might come up with a million dollar business idea that can eventually get me out of here for good.
Good night everyone.
August 9th, 2006 at 4:03am
good luck, boy. i’m sure you’ll get there, it just takes time. meanwhile–there are always people around to make life a little easier to walk through.
August 11th, 2006 at 7:14am
when my mom died at age 47 earlier this year, i realized how fucking short life really is. but instead wanting to live every minute of it, i find myself worrying how everyone around me may die, too, making everything i do for them useless. wrong, i know.
August 12th, 2006 at 9:44am
Yeah man think positive its tuff thinking billion dollar ideas when depressed. Being happy whereever you are is a great idea, dont let the stress eat u up, kick its ass!
November 10th, 2006 at 10:28pm
Pfft thats a good idea i have trouble writing and cant seem to focus these days being depressed sux. Hope u feelin better guys